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idk how i oscillate so sharply between prideful and dismissive / frail and emotional without feeling much dissonance at all
maybe the acknowledgement of lacking dissonance is a recognition of dissonance, or at least a recognition that dissonance would be appropriate or expected. really it's just surprising to go from crying in my office to speaking in a disinterested and disdainful tone
i think that kinda fits though, i feel like the former brought into focus what really matters, and being forced to trudge through irritating worthlessness prior and after were made all the more unimpressive