That’s okay though. Like if I realized what I liked or didn’t, or what I didn’t need anymore, that’s fine. The only problem is that didn’t leave anything left for her, and she needed more. And why would I do so much extra for her? I wouldn’t get anything out of it, and it’s not

Like the relationship was offering my side of the transaction much anymore. (To be clear, I’m being hyperbolic to make the understanding fit, I deeply valued her love and support throughout) our interests diverged greatly, we spent no time together and when we did it was always

Somewhat unenjoyable/unfulfilling for one or both of us. Talking with her was great whether online or in text, and social events with her there felt really nice. Just the core of the relationship was sort of hollowed out. None of this is to mention the fundamental schism of our

Long term life goals throughout, but this was meant to be a certain kind of way to understand the relationship, which is obv simplified. Also, I left out how my parents pressured and influenced the relationship a lot (especially around sex), which I should revisit at some point

I dunno, I think this was too simple of a model,but maybe there’s some insight. I do think by the end there wasn’t much of a relationship,which I enjoyed as much as she hated. I think our personalities are fundamentally incompatible (at least for now) but that sucks bc I love her

To clarify, I think breaking up was mostly inevitable, at least if we wanted to be happy, unless something drastic changed. I think our mutual love forced it a long time, but at the time I suppose it didn’t feel too much like forcing to me, she didnt force much on me