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I just want to take a moment to appreciate how compassionate and supportive Gail was. Genuinely one of the most kind people I have ever met, and probably will ever meet. Specifically right now I’m thinking of when I would live stream myself gaming.
Not only would she very often watch live and make sure she showed up, but if she missed it she would often watch the VOD. Always willing to moderate something or update the title. Just very supportive of something I was even marginally passionate about.
That actually meant a lot to me. I would actually be so interested in talking with her about this, because I’m not sure if I’ve ever had similar motivations. It just seems to selfless, I dunno. Maybe she was just bored and it was nice background noise or something, but
I don’t think so. I know she was very social so maybe this was just one way, but she was always just so supportive and made me feel like what I was doing was valuable. Unfortunately I don’t think I gave that enough thought or recognized how much I appreciated that.
I think there was lots that I just took for granted, and breaking up made me realize that much more. I’ve thought a lot about how underappreciated she was, and how much I think she was mistreated. And I’m sure to some extent there is some romanticism of the past and
A focus on my own shortcomings. Like we definitely had our issues and lots of the things I’m noticing are pretty far away from the end, so the situations have changed dramatically over time for sure, but still there are some things that just stick with me a lot
I feel the need to clarify that I’m not meaning to say that I want to be back together, because ultimately I don’t think it would work out unless there was a foundational reconstruction. I’m merely reflecting on some of the things that made the relationship so valuable to me, and
Why I think she was a pretty exceptional person. I don’t mean to put her on a pedestal, and I’m probably overhyping to some extent, but she is without question the person I have had the most respect for throughout my life.
Her love for life was so radically different from my own, and that was really valuable to have. I appreciated the pushback on my perspective, and that what I would say wouldn’t just go unchallenged. At the same time, I almost always felt confident that I would receive support