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I don’t know what to do about work. Not like long term, although that is undoubtably a challenge too. My mom wants me to get a job and help pay for my apartment. I really enjoy having large amounts of free time, and I also enjoy feeling competent in classes.
Working is daunting, and gross, and very uncomfortable. Clearly this is coming from a place a privilege where working is an option, but my preference would be for everyone to have that freedom. In my eyes I’m being spared an injustice that most people have to face.
It’s a time sink and feels ridiculous to work for scraps now even though after my degree I’ll likely be earning far more. I don’t buy the shit about it improving me as a person, it’s just teaching me to be a lapdog for authority.
It would be good for me socially, like forcing me outside, but I could do that in a number of ways that don’t involve me being a wage slave.
I have submitted a number of applications and stuff, but it just sucks idk. It’s embarrassing and humiliating and dehumanizing to sell myself like that. I really dislike that shit.