.: "I feel like I’m lacking in recovery hobbies now. Before I could just hang out with Gail and that was comfortable, safe, and chill. But now I just have games, videos, and that stuff demands a sort of brain activity even if it’s not very much."

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.Apr 18, 2021

I feel as if I should take some time to think and reflect on things, but I’m not sure I have much to say for now. I’ve settled on an eating plan with much more structure and that has been going really well. I don’t really think at all about Gail anymore. I’m bored sometimes.

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I feel like I’m lacking in recovery hobbies now. Before I could just hang out with Gail and that was comfortable, safe, and chill. But now I just have games, videos, and that stuff demands a sort of brain activity even if it’s not very much.

April 18, 2021 at 7:35 PM

.Apr 18, 2021

I lack resources to turn to when I just want to talk about things, it’s boring. I feel like when I have an interest I want to discuss it’s split among a bunch of different people, which is just kinda not ideal. Like hearing different perspectives is fine, I don’t have an issue

.Apr 18, 2021

With multiple relationships. The trouble is when I feel like my interests are segmented. It was nice being able to just dump whatever I was curious or thinking about at the time into one person, or at least feel comfortable enough to do so.

.Apr 18, 2021

To be honest I’m not sure if that’s really the issue, but it’s the first thing that came to mind. I’m not even sure if that’s healthy to desire, and could potentially be super draining and unfair to the person receiving. I do miss the critical feedback though.

.Apr 18, 2021

I am very unsure of the future. Job shit sucks, and I often hate the idea. Dreadful, frustrating, annoying, depressing. I don’t have much else to say for now.