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Getting cosmetic surgery for my neck tomorrow. I really hope it helps. I honestly don’t mind too much intrinsically, but others treat me a little weird for it I think. It was fading for a bit but more recently it’s become larger and more red. It would be nice to have it
Flat and less noticeable. I don’t really ever think about it until it’s pointed out, and then I feel pretty embarrassed and humiliated for some reason. Like “I was foolish for thinking something this ugly would go unnoticed, and that I was foolish for acting like it was
Irrelevant when it clearly matters” but that’s stupid and obv not true. Idk just is weird that I’m at a point in life where everyone pretends not to notice and doesn’t say anything, but it’s basically the first thing people see and I imagine I get judged prematurely for it
Constantly. Kinda just frustrating ig. Body image in general just really odd for me, like I don’t care at all because it doesn’t impact the things I most care about, but there are undeniable standards that make life confusing and difficult.
It feels like that implies that capitulation is necessary, like trying to cover up or eat less or whatever, but honestly that will never work. There will always be something, and it will never be good enough. And all of these standards are bullshit anyway, informed by garbage
World views. I can often shake out of it, like the requirement for men to be muscular or whatever, but some random things just have really caught me and dug in, namely weight appearance stuff. Idk sucks
I hate my existence being tied to a physical body so much :/ should honestly prob look into transhumanism stuff to flesh this out and think more about