im becoming more and more pleased with my hair :) feel v pretty

also coming back to in person classes n organizing n stuff i feel weird being gendered as male (man, guy, dude, boys) and i dont think its like i want to exclude masc pronouns or referents, but rather theres this frustration that that is assumed and i never get to experience

more gender neutral or femme compliments/referents. but ofc thats a really odd thing to ask for, and im personally uncomfy rn publicly being like any/all even, so i just leave blank. idk weird vibes, might feel better about it if i talk to parents not bc i need or want their

approval but at least then ill feel more confident in myself like that my perspective has more validity. bc rn the experiences ive had have been either writing me off a bit(but i dont entirely blame her) or just accepting its logical validity but still confused and perplexed and

def not going to perform that with me. not that my parents would do that either ugh. kinda frustrating. only other person i could would be muz but idk, we dont really spend that much time 1on1 and i might feel uncomfy in front of chud zoomer friends