i have no idea but like why lol. im just some random person you just didnt have to say anything at all. and its funny because like i have clearly gotten self conscious while looking at my neck before but i guess im realizing now it was never fear of something like that happening?

like thats just such a blatant dick move its not even hurtful its more just baffling. the stuff i fear is more the polite speech but passive judgement and disgust, and thats more insidious because i can never tell the difference. if everyone was that honest i just wouldn't care

and in fact it would be super easy just to write people off. totally weird interaction that has really made me reflect on my anxiety. so if in like a year my anxiety is way better, thank the random asshole that confirmed all my priors about sports fans :P

oh just to complete the story, the girls sort of giggled (i cant tell if they were like laughing genuinely or nervously or uncomfortably? couldve been any), and i just responded "so true dude" and walked back inside. fascinating i know. very silly, idk what he expected from that

oh i wanna add this so i feel like i am accurately conveying and not just like ego boost cringe post. my face got flushed im pretty sure and i felt embarrassed in the moment, and i undoubtedly looked sorta melancholic walking away but when i got back in my place and reflected

it immediately was very odd and funny to me. honestly more than anything i think i was embarrased to have my dad hear that (im sure he did as he was standing right in the next doorway trying to say goodbye to me lol, i never responded bc of this happening)