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Uhhhhhh fck fck I feel kinda weirddddd gahhhhh awk
Went to bioethics meeting and there were more people this time, I was pretty uncomfy in meeting
Split up into small groups and I got to talk w Emily again which was nice but didn’t really say much, felt kinda uninformed and prob only said like 3 things for the hour
BUT I did that thing I do where I just stick around after things and people start chatting w me Idk weird thing but it works
And I actually ended up walking home with this group of 4 other girls (oh ya the meeting was super women dominated population) which included Emily and McKenna but the rest were new to me but p sure they were execs
Anyway I was really awkward fucuucjckckck the main exec girl just kept asking me questions (which thank god) but I like never asked any back
I had nice time and they were really cool I was just a little weird I think
Like I was honest it just didn’t flow super well idk :// fun but hard challenge
Like if I was really honest I know I could have made conversation but it felt like too much (ex she asked for feedback about two options for next meeting and we talked about a policy for assisted suicide one and I wanted to be like “I feel like ethics is really hard to mix with
Policy because it makes a bunch of assumptions about what structures exist (capitalism, the state) and at that point there might not be a truly ethical policy” and that DEF would have started convo but like ?? I feel like wayyy too harsh idk, idk how to balance small talk stuff)
Also hard bc I didn’t know how long we’d be walking (but now I do so next time) so I didn’t wanna like start something yk
Fck anyway lots of anxiety brain cringing but w/e I had good time and it was good practice and challenge
Oh yeah fuck oh my god wtf I had this moment where I did break through and was extra honest: they were talking about the boy sitting next to me and I said “he had pretty eyes” LOL they rolled with it but I’m pretty sure it was like lolwut rip. Much rather would’ve talked about
Anarchy lol. Update on cool people: Emily, McKenna, Exec I walked home with that I don’t know name of (yikes). Everyone else, I either am ambivalent or dont like (including pretty eyes boy I hated what he had to say)