Like if I was really honest I know I could have made conversation but it felt like too much (ex she asked for feedback about two options for next meeting and we talked about a policy for assisted suicide one and I wanted to be like “I feel like ethics is really hard to mix with

Policy because it makes a bunch of assumptions about what structures exist (capitalism, the state) and at that point there might not be a truly ethical policy” and that DEF would have started convo but like ?? I feel like wayyy too harsh idk, idk how to balance small talk stuff)

Also hard bc I didn’t know how long we’d be walking (but now I do so next time) so I didn’t wanna like start something yk

Fck anyway lots of anxiety brain cringing but w/e I had good time and it was good practice and challenge

Oh yeah fuck oh my god wtf I had this moment where I did break through and was extra honest: they were talking about the boy sitting next to me and I said “he had pretty eyes” LOL they rolled with it but I’m pretty sure it was like lolwut rip. Much rather would’ve talked about

Anarchy lol. Update on cool people: Emily, McKenna, Exec I walked home with that I don’t know name of (yikes). Everyone else, I either am ambivalent or dont like (including pretty eyes boy I hated what he had to say)