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it's wild for a few reasons, like first and foremost its so persistent of a trait and such an identifiable and consistent theme. i always romanticize and heighten my emotions of loss, and i don't want to let them go
i've also talked about in the past that i LOVE when people make statements about me. the attention and attribution and it always feels intimate and connected and insightful
the specific point i wanna related to that that is around projective identification and consensus-seeking and how it feels like one of the most powerful ways i can meld together with someone
by assenting to your view i get to maintain and produce consensus, it's already a heightened emotional scenario to ascribe traits to another person and by accepting the interpretation we get to share this blissful positive connection with the release on tension
and its not like the agreement is faked or anything, i really do feel that way in the moment and after as well. your ideas are my ideas (and they're ideas about me! which is like we're inside each other) and our boundaries are blurred and its just this overwhelming embrace and i'm safe
btw root screenshot comes from archive.dreary.dev/posts/did_pl..., i was looking for "get over". it's funny, i recall how wrong of a diagnosis that felt at the time and it's even more absurd now