on the other hand i really should continue reading more contextualizing material and familiarizing myself with general community sentiment, even if i end up bored and disappointed by the engagement it still gets my mind some traction to spin, rather than just slowly spooling itself out

i enjoy exploring for myself but imposing ignorance upon myself yields lacking rigor and disorientation

aesthetics are a distinct subdomain philosophically but there is some carryover from broader lessons to learn about heroic independence and its futility. the practice (in multiple senses: composition, performance, consumption, analysis, critique) is similarly distinct from its theory but not quite