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the real reason i used to commit my own posts to memory is that they made me really anxious and i would dwell on them

another way of saying this is that i could recognize the symptom of backwards-looking self-referentiality as deleterious but (one of) the cause(s) was obscure until i instinctually pulled away
feels obvious in retrospect. most things in my life can be attributed to anxiety lol