i think a lot of my problems last year were in part attributable to my inability to muster criticisms of wittgenstein

that sounds absurd on its face but like i did share this romantic view in the unadulterated everyday and the method of expression that dealt in inexplicit reminders of the everyday which more rigorous thought would ironically obscure

even when i didn't explicitly endorse it (and sometimes i did, to some components at least), it was an operating principle of mine. and i would react very coldly to critiques, but characteristically just by avoidantly turning away to other thoughts instead of rejecting the rejection