and it’s not that ambiguity itself is alluring - it’s that an explanation would prematurely foreclose curiosity, and is always partial. don’t get me wrong, there’s plenty to analyze with what people explicitly state about their motivations (hi freud), but in some sense that is a separate enterprise.

and what interests me is the way platforms and protocols are designed and how this influences our engagement with them. AniList toward lexical legibility, YT playlists towards metaphorical inclusion/evaluation.

(in this context, with this dimension). as someone who struggles immensely to put their impressions into language, i appreciate the lacking feature set. even with the limited options i do have (title, description), i can get carried away. and of course im never satisfied with the result - there is

an inherent gap upon translation. which is manageable or at least tolerable at times, but.. idk there’s a reason i don’t leave comments on my highest rated media

everything i could say would be nauseatingly quaint or horrifically inadequate. i listen to others talk about the aspects they enjoyed and i roll my eyes, even though i may agree with the individual judgement. even mentioning this is an inapt use of attention in the face of what could be discussed,

but articulation would shred the delicate flower of its petals, leaving a bald stalk in its wake. you think you are extracting the the most significant core, but in your haste and carelessness you have mangled your subject.