i can’t enjoy music anymore. my existence is dull and bleak.

i’ve become numb and blurry, perpetually propelled, always in motion. anxiety is no longer relevant, depression is incapable of being indulged in. every protest is worthless, i will always yield. i am powerless but dreadfully do not have the luxury of being worthless. bound to normality, evermore.

i can’t escape hearing music the way it was intended to be consumed now. it’s disgusting. i hate you.