they reached out a bunch to try to get me to come back, but i refused every time. in high school i bumped into her mom while i was at my job, and she gave me emma’s number. at this point, we were both in monog relationships so nothing came of it.

in college, i was kind of on a kick of being more social and wanting to meet more people (this is because jay left, but that’s a story for another day). so i started joining clubs, attending events (like the one i met kasey at), and going on tinder/bumble dates, etc. this is also the time period i

met prxr btw. anyway, i text emma out of nowhere and we go out for drinks one night, then go back to her place and kiss but don’t mess around too much. we keep talking and hanging out, but she’s still way more into me than i am into her - i’m kinda just going with the flow and don’t mind one way or

the other, but to her this is like the culmination of childhood crush that she got stuck on. during the same time period, i’m hanging out with kasey and i talk about emma sometimes with how bored i am, especially now that i can contrast to kasey who i find to be a lot more intellectually fulfilling.

kasey really doesn’t like this, lol. she gets brainworms that emma is some S-Tier bishoujo girl competing for her attention and romantic prospects. in my autistic mind, i had made it super clear that i was nonmonog and that i was into kasey, and i was just talking about my life -

and if anything it was a compliment. kasey can probably fill in gaps better of how she felt at the time, i’m sure im butchering it (these were very hard emotions for me to read at the time). to wrap up tho, emma and i kept chatting for a while, got to third base, and fizzled out.