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one of my most stubborn bsky opinions is that i must remain comfortable posting on main. i waver sometimes but i want to be as vulnerable and open as i can be, for anyone interested enough to care.
as i’ve accumulated more relationships, i’ve had to become more mindful of what i share. i’ve had to find ways of being transparent while respecting their desires for privacy. i’ve enjoyed developing this new type of discretionary judgement, although i don’t always get it right.
the bluntness of old diary-posting probably isn’t really possible any longer; proper nouns are replaced with pronouns, untagged self-harm pics are replaced with implication, verbose contextualization is replaced with reliance on pre-existing familiarization that fits within 3-skeet threads.
that’s not all bad, it’s fun in lots of ways to get accustomed to a new mode of communication and to explore its bounds. constraints are interesting. i think it’d be fun to go back to the old style for a week, though it’s unclear if i’m capable given the kind of values and habits i’ve internalized.
it’s also unclear if it’s something i need any longer. the function bsky posting has served in my life has fluctuated a lot since i first joined, and to some extent the current state of things is the appropriate adaption to my circumstances. no matter what, i don’t want to allow myself to hide tho.