ah yes 33 talks about the need for what i described above a bit. but its kinda dancing between conceptions in a way that my (eg.s) were too fixed about i think

as in there are specific moments and processes of defamiliarization and refamiliarization that you can't really characterize some way of thinking of as a whole, it might contextually be one or the other

the one thing thats kinda sticking with me is philosophy as activity, like its not just that i have been rusty or out of practice but like, there was a kind of dogmatism to my thought that became fixed and uncontextual, continually rolled out, and the more it was repeated the more untrue it became

drawbacks of a backwards-looking way of life

the mathematical sections are good but well-trodden to me at this point so i don't have much to say on it

i think i have at some points been a despiser of scientific pomposity and scientific procedure of all kinds. safer heuristic when you've been burned but it's time to move past the trauma