ngl i really fumbled the last one and im never clear about my purpose with such things (even to myself, which causes me to flounder when challenged). had a long talk with kasey about it and we kinda settled on "actually this was a call-out post for your affluent followers in disguise"

like yea i'm a part of it but that's not really the primary purpose, it's more like performative over the top self-flagellation with the intention to remind people that this shit is not benign or innocuous, it doesn't come from nowhere, one ought reflect on it's sources, integration, usage, etc etc.

lowkey i also just hate the obscurity and pretending everyone has about this stuff too. everyone presents themselves as something they are not and the only real way to verify is to be obnoxiously transparent. but it either comes off as genuinely guilt-ridden or humble bragging.

it's a flawed strat, i don't think i'm gonna do it anymore. it causes a lot of interpersonal issues and it's blunt and ugly so i'm backing down. i think it was more rhetorically effective when i was making 70k, because techies were making more than me and i could be like "even with this its opulent"