The last few days I’ve had feelings that led me believe I had feelings to process about Gail again, but every time I tried I wouldn’t have anything to say. And I think now I’m realizing that I was just feeling sort of emotionally vulnerable and reflective, and those emotions

had become associated with Gail recently due to the breakup, but can also just exist on their own too. It’s been easy to just default to “oh I’m feeling emotional? Must be about gail; let’s process”

But now that nothing is happening on that front, I’ll have to turn to other sources or lenses to process. That’s obviously more healthy and realistic long term, but is a difficult transition. And for multiple years while I was with Gail I would have our relationship

As an immediate repository for my reflections, and was able to receive feedback and support. I could obviously receive that now from other sources, but my current support group I don’t feel very comfortable with that, nor do I think I’d get much out of it.