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I've known this for a while but I don't think I've written it down or distinctly thought about it, but I think I just hate the idea of interacting with the world. I don't know how to really put this in words.
I don't like putting myself out there, making a difference, asserting myself. I would rather be a passive observer in everything I do, I don't want to impact anyone else, and I often find the impact of others on me to be intrusive. Additionally, I also hate the limits that are
put on me by the world. I hate being confined to a body, I hate requiring food, shelter, money, work. I struggle to truly enjoy anything other than pure experience of thought. I don't know how to unpack this stuff to be honest.
I just find it so deeply unfortunate that my existence must be paired with the limitations of scarcity, my body, being influenced by others and forcing my will upon others. Existence is constitutively coercive, and that's trash. I hate that I was "raised" by parents.
I hate that I am expected to write essays with my opinions, I am forever uninformed enough to make decisions properly, and the consequences of not making decisions are disastrous. I hate my consumption of anything: food, space, attention. I think people are all too quick to write
off these things as "just the way the world works" rather than truly dwelling on an importantly oppressive feature of existence. While I understand that whining about that stuff won't do anything, I think its important to recognize.
That way we can better realize that we sentient beings are all struggling against the forces that have been thrust upon us. This lack of solidarity really sucks. :/ Honestly not even having the option to pop in and out of existence sucks too. What if I just want a break?
I'm sure the metaphysics of all this blah blah blah implications blah idc I'm just tired of being subjected to this and that I never consented to this and that true informed consent could never be possible. I'm annoyed that I seem to be the only one who cares about this.
That being said, I know there are some anarchists who have written about this stuff. I know some of the things I talked about might sound like anti-natalist or depressed talking points but yeah idk. Stuff like this just strengthens my affinity for anarchist analysis, it seems
as if they are the only ones who write or think about these issues. I'm so tired.