went for a walk today, not entirely sure why, just felt like it. enjoyed it. I think a big part of me "growing up" is me coming to learn that I can enjoy things I thought I couldn't/didn't, and that most of my dislike came from me doing things on other people's terms.

If I have complete autonomy over my choices, many things can be enjoyable. I may struggle to recognize instances and opportunities at first, because of their unfamiliar nature. Not to mention, often I feel like I didn't enjoy things because of who I was with, or the fact that

I was with anyone at all. Not necessarily personal, I just enjoy time with myself, even in doing things most people would do socially. Like this walk around took a long time, and was less of a walk and was more of travelling to various places, sitting down, and taking things in

for a bit. I brought things with me in my backpack in case I wanted to read or play with a cube but nope, just felt like watching people or looking at scenery. when I felt like it, I walked home.

That's the first time in months that I've left my apartment by myself, and only the third/fourth time since I've moved in lol. And I don't wanna play this up too much bc its not like i was WOW IM ENJOYING THIS, it was just nice and fine. Like often going out feels like a waste

of time and energy but it wasn't like that, it was just fine. I was tired when I got home, but I took the space to relax, it was nice.Nothing groundbreaking, just nice. And I think for me that's a lot better, I spend most of my time and enjoyment in things that are just fine/nice