i was like developmentally stagnant for a long time in my youth, like totally unaware of a lot of really important shit. parents kept shit, friends with similar (like scott) I just really didn't have very much interaction with real stuff.

tbh prob why im so into youth lib on an emotional level

also still impacts me a lot a lot today still. prob large part of why im so anxious and unfamiliar with many things in the world, everything seems so complicated and unapproachable