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;LAKSDJF;LKJ aghghgh now im remembering even more cringe someone was talking about their certificates stuff and comparing w me and brought up global health and i said my ex did that and aghghgh so weird i feel idk maybe not ugh i just hate that in between zone
like w ren i was able to just be giga honest right away and we flowed super well yk but this shit is way too hard irl i cant do small talk stuff bc the stuff i actually care about is like big picture shit!!!
they even brought up and mentioned like political shit (CRT and school stuff) so im sure if i leaned into that more id be fine im just really surfing in a weird zone idk and like 80% if not all of it is self imposed. i just dont wanna alienate people but its hard when im unsure
ill be okay, im glad im thinking this through bc now hopefully i can let it be processed and not dwell. i genuinely had good time and it was interesting to hear them talk too. a bit uncomfy experience but its good! def glad i did it and nice opportunity to branch and yeah
its ok to be a bit uneasy, its good to work through and let myself feel emotions instead of trying to suppress and hide away.
another ex is like she asked what other clubs i was in and i could have said i go to DSA sometimes, but mostly just listen because theyre heavily neokaut marxist influence and im more anarchist. but even saying dsa comes with baggage maybe and explaining further is just
even more of a thing and they wont know or care lol. but still being more vulnerable and transparent helps people feel comfy around you in return, its just hard for me to take that leap first. but ppl like to hear things youre passionate about and otherwise its just zz small talk