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re reading texts between gail and HOLY FUCK I WAS ACTUALLY THE WORST WHAT THE FUCK. SERIOUSLY>>>???????
like i was horrendous at communication and she was actually so fucking patient and the one doing a lot of serious reflection and shit, and i was just constantly missing the point and being a fucking asshole what the fuck
maybe i was just having a slump or something?? but wow jesus christ what the fuck this is actually really hard to read. shes being super mature and putting a ton of effort in and im like 100% phoning it in jesus. this is the first time i've actually read through
the texts leading up to break up (that i can remember? maybe i did right after?) but yeah yeeeesh this is so fucking shit
at the time i think i was super arrogant and wayyyyy over confident fucking philosophy bro cringelord and wow jesus christ is shows. she was actually communicating so well and i was just all over the place. this is actually super embarrassing.
I don't know why I always feel like developmentally behind her but wow it really shows after giving some space between.
not to say that i think we should have stayed together necessarily, there were still some deep issues that would possibly impossible to resolve, but wow i could have communicated so so so so much better and we could have talked about stuff that was actually important
AHHHHHHHH shes trying SO HARD and i am making things SO DIFFICULT??? WHY?>?>?
ok so she made this great list of things that were super important for her that she didn't feel like matched up very well and i wanna go through them (esp the highlighted ones)
*but first i wanna acknowledge change in perspective ive had since about RA stuff. i dont feel the need for everything to be attached to one life partner, so a lot of the things that are *lacking* on the list my solution is just to find other relationships that fill that void,
thats my first intuition but i have to fight back against that bc even if you dont need 1 partner to fulfill everything, it can still be nice and cool to connect with your relationships in ways that matter to them*