alright prob way past time to wrap this up. in conclusion, i think ive grown a lot on a ton of different areas, and that feels really good. im not so much interested ultimately in my compatibility with her as much im interested in seeing how ive changed over time.

the areas in which ive improved are good for me regardless of what relationships i have in my life, which is super wonderful imo. there are somethings that ive had minimal movement on, but these are mostly particular things relating to her interests and passions, however

widespread/common/universal these interests might be for many people. ultimately not *too* concerned about this, but still something worthy of consideration. lots of my interests and passions are highly individualistic, so this can make relationships difficult with people who

have expectations/desires for more social interaction. that might sound like a basic problem, but the degree to which it impacts me is pretty serious. even activities i would normally enjoy like anime or gaming become a chore with others around, and thats really rreally rough

ultimately not a super big worry, i don't need romantic or partner style relationships to feel fulfilled completely, just something very important to keep in mind when creating relationships, especially bc i def think ill want some relationships

i made a note to myself as i was writing to not just diminish my worth and i think thats important to end on. i have a lot of personal quirks and some of them may be things to spend time investigating and resolving if they are harmful, but