in retrospect this was incredibly tame by comparison

i can't wait for winter

pre-kasey winter '23 was kind of this magical time period

i had experienced less in a good way, i was still not yet accustomed to work, i was socially undersaturated and was about to lose my main friend in muen. im at my most productive when socially deprived, and thats not something really considerable to me nowadays, its self-imposed if at all

i dont mean to glorify it, you can read the evidence for yourself about the dissatisfaction i experienced, but it was a more pure version of myself. i don't want him back but i respect him

his head was less cluttered, even if it was full of storm clouds