also like spelling and writing in general have been challenging?? idk i feel so foggy and disorganized. having a poor grasp on language is so humiliating
don't get me wrong that stuff is cool and i really value the relationships where i feel like i have more progress to make, but it's also immeasurably valuable to have someone to come "home" to, both emotionally and physically
ngl i'm pretty self-conscious about where my attention has been going lately, i don't want to be someone who complains about work all the time. even if it's all i'm doing its so shameful id rather not document or think about it in addition to doing it. self-absorbed and boring, ill do better
admittedly this is me being more aware of my audience than i should be, but yknow if it has the encouraging effect of pointing me away from doing things that are bad for me anyway, that's chill