it’s so funny because like my current mental is like “ok just lemme get home from this trip- oops i mean *this* trip- oops okay just wait for the weekend there’s too much going on at work- alright now gimme a sec to catch my breath- oops now two weeks of go-live grind- oops…”

hm

i feel positive sentiments toward you, but i don’t miss my voice

gotta say tho, it’s cool getting notifs late

sorry ig, maybe a few days more until you’ll get a reply, no guarantee it’ll be satisfactory. frankly i hope i forget i saw that. feels good to swap back to safety

👎

he’s my fav scrunkly that never does anything right, poor guy is like 0 for 20

i like when ppl talk with their hands

also btw i keep making my mood seem more dour than is the case, it’s not as weighty, negative, nor proximately related as i’m letting on (but you knew this since the “misrepresenting” post). we’re chillin and i’m alright

normal manipulators use girls for sex, i use them to generate material for rumination

is my violation of the categorical imperative mitigated by the fact that i instrumentalize myself in this process as well? (the answer is no on both counts: it of course doesn’t mitigate, but also isn’t a violation because i am not a “mere means” for myself, since it is in service of a rational end)

during the visit i deactivated because diary posting was a more suited medium for my private disorganized feelings

i’ve been staying deactivated because that was comfortable and beneficial and i not sure i’m ready to be visible yet.

i’m in no rush to come back because i haven’t really come to a resting spot yet, and im sort of overflowing with reflection and emotion (which is cool!) but any expression is misleading and misrepresentative and i don’t need the additional weight of that consideration while i work through stuff

my customers revenue cycle manager is a tatted asian baddie with hair highlights and a pin on her bag that stays “still emo”

if i was 10 years older…

jk i just think she’s cool

and we don't say a thing cause we don't have a thing to say

your pretty face and the cats all sleeping and your pretty face made it feel okay

turning away when i kiss you and we did kiss now and then but not a lot and not enough

it was nice to share each others life it was nice for a bit

ain't life a bitch oh honey ain't life a bitch

ADULT CONTENT

it’s true, child laborers wouldn’t understand our struggles

dawn is cruel

a dash of petulance, i’m not grown yet

some lady watching me cry at the gate

that’s observational not bitter

i have some emotional processing to do but it’ll have to wait until tonight

i like my devilman pfps

i could go on a despera run sometime

don't forget it buddy

i love my band mates

i hope the metaphor was obvious enough

big fan of tempo changes

compositionally, it's easy to forget they exist, and difficult to find the place for them. as a player, they're ambitious and challenging to pull off gracefully. the audience has a role to play too, and not just a receptive one.

you don't always get to take it from the top, and making the most of a live performance can be more fun than hitting the studio to perfect a few measures. even if the transition is wobbly, tempo changes still effective as long as everyone catches one another to get back on beat

self-list is the meta, i should support

also apropos of nothing, did you know did: works like from:

i’m gonna name my next account palomar

my voice is different today

btw i’m only posting because she’s working lol

i don’t wanna impose too much or be too forward so i’m just chillin, we’ll see what happens

great meme btw

i forgot how cool she is

i’m not totally infatuated or w/e, i just like her and its nice to be back. also the World Spirit has set me to work on the neglected opposite side of her opinion polls

prince gives big milk vibes but not quite as fat