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looking to be someone's pretty young thing, dms open
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y'all really let me get away with anything 6 months ago bsky.app/profile/did:...
willow‬ ‪@dreary.dev‬ i wish i was an incel my caucasian xy chromosomes yearn to mourn my waning hegemony and treat women like objects 6mo - July 25, 2024 at 4:59 PM
willow
i am a white, femme, transmasculine, non-binary, temporarily mostly able-bodied, neurodivergent, obsessive-compulsive, chronically ill, culturally jewish, unitarian universalist, non-monogamous, demi-romantic, grey-demi-bisexual, millennial, cat parent in mental health recovery
God forbid you disagree w a white bitch and now they gotta bring up the fact that they non-binary or gay or got adhd or an ED or Italian or autism or bpd or DID or childhood trauma or https://www.tiktok.com/discover/hi-im-cody-i-am-a-white-trans-masculine https://soundcloud.com/cornsyrupchugger/self-diagnosis
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my bed is so cold without you
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It works on my mushroom Personal Data Server: 🍄 Porcini https://internect.info
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Chaotic Boy @maniacmongoose "A withered past, and a blurry future" you can't make fun of me, i was like 15 https://www.tumblr.com/maniacmongoose
willowFeb 2, 2025
https://kolektiva.social/@Kyler Kyler @Kyler@kolektiva.social Not being or becoming, but embodying the remainder. This a a paraphrase of a quote from Lee Edelman's No Future (pg 24-25): Thus, queerness could never constitute an authentic or substantive identity, but only a structural position determined by the imperative of figuration; for the gap, the non coincidence, that the order of the signifier installs both informs and inhabits queerness as it inhabits reproductive futurism. But it does so with a difference. Where futurism always anticipates, in the image of an Imaginary past, a realization of meaning that will suture identity by closing that gap, queerness undoes the identities through which we experience ourselves as subjects, insisting on the Real of a jouissance that social reality and the futurism on which it relies have already foreclosed. Queerness, therefore, is never a matter of being or becoming but, rather, of embodying the remainder of the Real internal to the Symbolic order. One name for this unnameable remainder, as Lacan describes it, is jouissance, sometimes translated as “enjoyment”: a movement beyond the pleasure principle, beyond the distinctions of pleasure and pain, a violent passage beyond the bounds of identity, meaning, and law. the only hint i have for the hands banner is that the original unedited image, which is just a normal black and white manga panel, is titled 23523. i have another edited version up on https://anilist.co/user/DrearyWillow pfp is Tōka Takanashi from Love, Chunibyo & Other delusions with sparkles and a collar n shit
this is a killer layout tho i should bring this back
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my heart is full of microfractures for a girl who never existed
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@WoojungSon-c6n 1 hour ago Thanks, just noticed most of Raymond Geuss videos I watch on YouTube were uploaded by you These videos helped a lot https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UP2LRqVHx94&lc=UgyA7GCLfK2GldB8wF54AaABAg
willow
you're almost everything i'd ever want but you're just not her, no, you're just not her in all honesty, i’m just not sure
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staring at the ground just thinking to myself i wanna talk to you but you're looking at someone else my head is full of smoke it's getting hard to see you're so far away you're so out of reach
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i'm so sick of february weather 'cause i'd rather burn than freeze

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my ED was pretty formative to my identification with femininity
maniacmongoose reblogged cuddlesandbones I want… I want my collarbones to show. I want to feel dainty in sundresses. I want to be afraid of how I walk because my thighs won’t touch and it would feel strange. I want people to offer to give me piggy backs. I want my girlfriend to be able to lift me up. I want my girlfriend to beg for me to stay in her lap because I’m light. I want to cross my legs in class without struggling under the desk. I want to feel my cheekbones and jawline when I wash my face. I want my friends to be afraid of roughly grabbing me because they would think I’m fragile. I want people to ask me to be their date at prom, not to be the one that begs several classmates. I want to borrow colleague’s hoodies/jackets and be large on me. I want my hands to feel dainty while holding my gf’s hand/cupping her cheek/doing literally everthing. I want one sandwich to be so filling because my stomach is too small. I want people to offer to carry my things because they think they would be too heavy for me. I want to finally be able to wear a swimsuit in the summer camps without feeling ashamed of my thighs and belly. I want to easily walk through desks without struggling to fit between them. I want my thighs to still look small even when sitting on the chair. I want to jump and run across the hallways without looking disgusting. I want to be able to easily do exercises in P.E. I want to wear skirts at school without sucking in my belly. I want to be feminine at least from now on. I want to be able to wear every colour of jeans because I would still look small. I want to go shopping and fit the smallest sizes.
willow
my relationships are not even in principle commensurable
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@getdownon.it invalid :c
Identity Decentralisation Labeler Invalid Handle https://bsky.app/profile/did:plc:mxsvcwyq6mofumlwyxiws3g5
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https://soundcloud.com/loser64/i-cant-get-what-i-want-ft-ntpa I can't get what I want [ft. NTPA] - Loser64 Not the Proper Attire [Loser64:] Am I creepy? Is there something that I’m not seeing ‘cause everyone acts like it’s easy I just wish you were happy to see me Can you see me? Let me just say I don’t need all that much to be okay And I’m hoping it works out one day But I know that it’s not going my way Going my way cause I- I can't get what I want I’m worn out and my mind is shot I’ll give up, I’ll give in try again and again I’m just sick of it all and I wish it would end and I- I can’t get what I need ‘Cause you’re so damn hard to please I would pour out my heart But you won’t play your part I’m just holding my breath for a movie that’s not gonna start [NTPA:] Am I wrong Or do you simply refuse to play along I’ve done all I can I’ve followed the plan But I keep messing up again and again Do you care Or do you believe I was just a waste of your air Thought I did what you want Thought we had lots of fun But I guess all of that is done and I- [Loser64] I can't get what I want I’m worn out and my mind is shot I’ll give up, I’ll give in try again and again I’m just sick of it all and I wish it would end and I- I can’t get what I need ‘Cause you’re so damn hard to please I would pour out my heart But you won’t play your part I’m just holding my breath for a movie that’s not gonna start You’ve got it better than I’ll ever have I don’t expect you to understand There’s nothing left and it makes me sad I always feel like such a And it just kills me Every time I look at you I know it's stupid I know there’s nothing I can do
willow
hey wait i can finally post this and mean it soundcloud.com/goyfriendisr...

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just a guy

(nova crashout) im a fuckign F@g i know that you dont care im lsot in the sauce im lost in jerking off youre adultering my adulting fucking up my life no matter how many chords that i play ill never

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*a kinda bangs

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BRAINSOUP!

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behind on work because i spent all day feeling emotions
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my heart keeps tripping in unexpected and confusing ways
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brakence - deepfake And you're two thousand miles away So why am I stalking your Twitter and lying awake? I show my true colors, you left and my life got so gray I can't get over you, yet I built up so much hate But despite all the lies and projections, I hope you're okay
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gnawing every single bone you shattered you're everything i need

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summer's gone

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conversations with no one
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willow
throwback to kat chan's project that got removed from youtube drive.google.com/drive/u/0/fo...

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shit - Google Drive

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Karl Marx, Draft of an Article on Friendrich List's Book It is one of the greatest misapprehensions to speak of free, human, social labour, of labour without private property. “Labour” by its very nature is unfree, unhuman, unsocial activity, determined by private property and creating private property. Hence the abolition of private property will become a reality only when it is conceived as the abolition of “labour” https://marxists.architexturez.net/archive/marx/works/1845/03/list.htm Marx and Engels Collected Works (MECW) Volume 4 https://marxists.architexturez.net/archive/marx/works/cw/volume04/index.htm
willow
thanks for letting me ugly cry on you
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willow
shimmering with all the colours of distress - green and gray with disgust, surfeit, sympathy, gloom, and loneliness
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maybe i need *o more than you do
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test for nan
willow
i should be allowed to put alt text on posts without media
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willow
she was the first beautiful thing i ever got stuck on
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youtu.be/GdkGHcpoV14

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High Hopes

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willow
molly turned out the lights for me last night <3
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honestly her finest work bsky.app/profile/did:...
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i really have been feeling the “catch me” portion. like there’s this really robust net and there’s all sorts of people i can rely on and go to. i never have to feel alone
willowFeb 6, 2025
this is the first period in my life i feel like i have a community. i love you all so much and i feel so loved. when i fall you catch me. thank you
willow
who up insourcing they goeoview
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willow / @dreary.dev 666 followers slipknot - the heretic anthem
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i was too much of a coward to keep this up the other day
willow @dreary.dev • 14m feeling a lot of things i haven't felt since gail willow@dreary.dev • 13m between [redacted] and [redacted],., it's been really nice honestly willow@dreary.dev • 10m i have such a wider breadth of emotion now than then, and so to be clear, this of course is not my only touchstone for love, but nonetheless the recurrence in modified fashion is pleasant
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willow
i cry a lot more now, you all just mean so much to me
willow
i just don’t do drugs or get in legal trouble
https://ricepuritytest.com/ The Official Rice Purity Test Have you ever... Your score: 29

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willow
this is such a good thread (pretty sure i'm replying to dead julie alt)
willowApr 2, 2024
she’s good for it, trust i’ll let you borrow her some time
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never forget, i used to be dogshit at overwatch
season 4 overwatch 1019 final SR, 1173 season high SR most played heroes: zen, junkrat, soldier: 76 for 5 hours each image found in ren discord dms on 11/14/21, 8:30 PM
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mom (ren) 12/16/21 11:30 AM I HOPE U ARE HAVING A WONDERFUL DAY !!! take it easy i love u!! fruits basket tohru honda
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is there a good way to reconstruct a thread with deleted nodes
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It would not be surprising if the discipline of “philosophy” depended for its continuing vitality on the tension between its different poles - between interest in the structure of the natural world, interest in forms of argumentation, and interest in “what would be for the best”.
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old willow to new willow: Interestingly, I am a critic of relief while you are a proponent of relief.
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i wanna sink to the bottom with you
willow
'Rather do anything than nothing' - even this principle is a cord to strangle all culture and all higher taste.
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when i get another ban email i fear my heart won’t even be warmed by the knowledge that it was the authentic and personal touch of a human

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