updated my website

encrypted gif with private healthcare information

every day i am forced to endure others’ writing

each sunrise is an opportunity for new abuses of the english language

“i think the affiliate worded this beautifully so i will attach their documentation to provide the context” and its a word doc somehow scrawled in crayon

i helped a 4 year tenure implementation director install linkifier last week

i should really learn peoples names better

me adding and removing a period from my parent child extended properties every two weeks to keep the mods off my back

kaseys everywhere hate this one ingenious trick

violet evergarden as slice of life???

average slice of life

wait a minute chloe’s kinda on some shit with that one, let her cook

start all the work programs, go to the bathroom, maybe a stroll around campus, they’re be finished initializing by the time i’m back

still waiting on this update btw

take your time kiddo, it’s only gating like the highest priority things i have to do today

“chatgpt for visual design” presentation at monthly staff meeting, futur and julie are screaming

tfw ur claims ts crush has a boyfriend on her lock screen ❤️‍🩹

there are only two options: give it up and hop on the claims is your wife brought you instead, or double down and steal her boyfriend’s heart

one of these days i’m going to have to grapple with my avoidant strategies of protection, which is hard because they work really well in the short term

this is a trivial example but it’s basically always my answer to things, and it works. i think part of the reason i was so stubborn with dreary.dev and triggering myself with excessive self-exposure was a clumsy attempt to brute-force confront avoidance

i told myself that i couldn’t keep running, and eventually i couldn’t take it anymore, ran away, and things got better for me. how am i supposed to get better if it keeps working

to which it raises the obvious question to interrogate why i even care to change in the first place. it’s working, why are you so adamant on stopping?

and the answer is that i cannot keep living in anxiety and fear my whole life. there are some situations i simply can’t run away from. some things will make me uncomfortable some of the time and i have to be able to not merely temporarily and passively endure through it, but meaningfully engage

that doesn’t mean i have to make myself uncomfortable on purpose, especially in contexts that are ostensibly intended to be pleasant, but it’s also not as simple as bracketing off domains of life

oh yea btw im like chill now, despite the sad-whatever posting, being alone this weekend was nice

stepping away from this account was important and beneficial too, sometimes i just need no eyes on me

food is a sad topic for me

i think it was brought up in eh vc and hailey agreed and that kind of stung a bit

oh yeah it defi was bc katherine apologized for food meetup lol

i’m better than i was but it’s still hard for me

i should go to the asian mart more often

maybe i will boil some taro :)

miso is so good too, and there are so many great types of noodles

also different bean pastes n stuff

i wish the government would ban all food from animals and their byproducts so people would embrace less disgusting options

there are so many ingredients in the world that are nice and feel nice to consume rather than inducing despair

i’m rather tired and i’d like to touch someone and be touched

i’ve been struggling to properly see things through to completion so it feels good to actually finish something

don’t ask me to explain, i’m notoriously bad at rating systems

clearly he spurred a lot of reflection this go-around and i’m still vibin to an extent but they’re pretty heroic and selective interpretations

but why tho

jane waited 10 months and all she got was a lousy 2 star review

oh my god i’m so fuckin glad that shit is over 😭

you would not believe the pain on my face when i finally finished the true route and had one stupid cg to finish

i intended to read a chapter or two of a real book before bed but nope i’m protesting and laying down early instead

i think spiro is like dumb as a concept but maybe that’s natty low t privilege talking

nobody flame me i don’t know what im talking about and idc to know more