as unpopular as it is in these circles, i refuse to structure my thought around Agency

i’m feelin the gulf between volitional actions and responsive actions

the former is a pretty narrow slice, but the distinction is highly interpretative to the point of essentially being ad hoc so that doesn’t mean much more than to say “it feels imposed”

i think a less morally charged reading is possible but then you also lose the motivation to make the distinction in the first place

on the lowkes i hate CNV

“why isn’t this working” idk bro this shit is unmaintained, i’m surprised anything works at all

i’m anxious to avoid it because it’s so easy to do

undoubtedly there’s also a high degree of fear of shame involved, it’s one of my most orienting vices

soundcloud album embeds are so funny for being tall guys so they can fit the tracks when you press play

i feel like this could be handled better ngl lol

still rocks

my tabs ! eek

look at this provider trying to be a denials manager bro

i used emojis in a post yesterday that looked suspiciously LLM-ey but it was just a list of level of feature ability ✅ 🟡 ❌

i suppose i could’ve used highlight colors but the contrast goes off, it’s annoying i have to worry about this

if more people knew about super+period… (the world would be a much worse place actually, keep it this way)

EW WHAT THE FUCK

account switcher for geriatrics, why do we keep doing this

and everything is round now

not all dreams need to be documented

kasey breaking free from bsky

me posting this:

i’m so mean to anarchists but only because they’re really dumb

i should ask kasey if there’s a term for a function f(x) that is entirely different from another function g(x) but for an absurd amount of values produces the same result

when we bringing democratic confederalism back chat

i read bookchin forever ago and got so bored dude

i should pick that shit back up honestly, i need to get in touch with the repetitious platitude-spewing dregs of political theory (anarchists and their ilk)

it’s so late already and i accomplished absolutely nothing today

i acquired some juicy drama details ig but it came along with the duty of being a therapist

"i wonder what ppl are making on atproto these days" "oh ok schema war crimes good to know"

"not an atproto app in the slightest" type shit

if you told me this was an effort to embarrass paul by executing Option 2 to its conclusion i would believe you

i’ve been a grouchy little baby today huh

i temporarily thought i was caught up and then i opened my email with a dozen new tasks

i am going to block you if i get one more notification

i dislike the windows operating system

you’ll never believe what this was for

anarchists love copyright

i had misconceptions about creation and its implicit demandingness

like i had this self-conception, self-justification even, that i would curate things or write things or post things and that because it wasn’t a direct message or notification to an individual, it carried no obligations because others had to opt-in and seek it out. i was allowed to be a careless.

and for some things that’s true, like some people will never listen to the updates i make on their playlists, but i also have people that will listen to everything. i don’t really know what that entails for any personal “shoulds”

i think the most extreme extension of this was passing along hours of kasey convos directly to juliet and i still kinda had the attitude of “eh it’s whatever, listen or not, it’s just available.” but that’s not a realistic model of people

if it’s not clear, i liked this thought process because i got to be vulnerable and exposed as much as the observers wanted to pursue, but i wasn’t like shoving it down their throat or forcing it. it allowed me to have this distant form of connection

or like that was the ideal. it also was a stand-in for direct social interaction which i’m rather poor at. in fairness, this sorta half-worked half of the time so it’s understandable how i got hung up on it.

but yea i dont really know where that leaves me. like im doing the thing right now by posting here instead of in a diary, and i dont think ill totally remove that type of communication from my repertoire

but also i think ive learned that not everything has to take that form all of the time, and there a pretty severe limitations and sharp edges i’ll try to keep away from