willow: "those sound like big emotions but i really just feel small. i'm diminutive, quaint, delicate, timid. i'm aware i'm deifying, mythologizing, i can't help myself. i can't imagine a similar connection with anyone, nor am i seeking it."

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willowOct 3, 2023

family had a storage issue with photos, i went to help out. found a bunch of pics of her and idk what to say.

willowOct 3, 2023

i still miss her, i still love her, my heart is so heavy that every breath is burdensome. she's unbearably beautiful. melancholy, angst, reverence, admiration. lexical description is impossible for the subdued mourning yet screaming agony i feel.

willow @dreary.dev

those sound like big emotions but i really just feel small. i'm diminutive, quaint, delicate, timid. i'm aware i'm deifying, mythologizing, i can't help myself. i can't imagine a similar connection with anyone, nor am i seeking it.

October 3, 2023 at 8:11 PM

willowOct 3, 2023

i can't even really say i'm longing for the time we had, i did my best to make it miserable and often succeeded. but i do miss and revere her.

willowOct 3, 2023

possibly a bit pitiful that i'm still so hung up on her. distractions are fine, but reminders demand my full attention once again. though the frequency has subsided over time, the magnitude of my emotions with regard to her have not.