willow: "i actually tried several times to get a result and kept quitting before finishing because it made me upset. i hate the type of thinker i have become over the last two years. i don't even have cognitive access to a version of myself that would be more adequate."

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i actually tried several times to get a result and kept quitting before finishing because it made me upset. i hate the type of thinker i have become over the last two years. i don't even have cognitive access to a version of myself that would be more adequate.

July 12, 2024 at 4:46 PM

willowJul 12, 2024

my past is not a utopian blueprint, but i've been traveling in the wrong direction for a while now, and i wish i could trace my steps back to a place where i could start over. that being said, here are my results: 1) tangled mess 2) how i think when given space to breathe; philosophically 3) work

willowJul 12, 2024

i should have killed myself when i had the chance dont worry, theres still time :)

willowJul 12, 2024

i don't have an identity. that's cool when i can float around and be an ironist, a mask-wearer with no face. it's less cool when i'm coerced into one particular mode for another's purposes on another's time table. my lungs are stained black, and i'm tired of choking on smoke.