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something i miss about life before adulthood is that i used to be able to avoid some responsibilities because of mental health issues
whether or not i enjoyed them was somewhat beside the point, they gave my suffering some sort of objective validity, and made me feel like the world wasn’t so ironclad and locked down
i had 4 different doctors that i would repeatedly skip class to go to, and i got sent to an inpatient facility for a bit.
especially the latter was mentally liberating in the sense of being confronted with a completely alien environment and being impressed with how wide the range of human experience might be, which is maybe a little odd given the nature of the institution.
that’s not really an option any more though. the cog will continue until it breaks.