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willow Today at 01:35
oh !!! there was things i was gonna type before i really really am interested in relationships where there's room and pressure for me to grow
like i think that's the central core of the mini
"older women" arc
because yes that's a pretty good proxy i just don't want to be the one to do the dragging along
and honestly someone that i'm able to admire, that pushes me higher
nietzsche just cooked so hard, the hierarchical relation here is so important he often spoke of entire persons, and that has its place, but really it's most enlightening looking at aspects and features
that there is an unsurveyable array of things not antecedently specifically that can be admirative objects

willow Today at 01:43
and it doesn't have to be like so apparent that i'm deficient in some thing, it can even be as simple as an appreciation of a mode of their behavior, their way of seeing the world merely being exposed to their actions and thoughts is enough to have the right educative effect, and it doesn't even have the feeling of being deficient
just "here's a reminder that this is a way to do things", and of course it need not be, and often is not a cognitive process for the instructor either
[redacted1], [redacted2], [redacted3] have this

March 16, 2025 at 9:23 AM

willowMar 16, 2025

obviously i’m being imprecise here (particularly odd is the “instructor” framing) but cut me some slack this was another 2am wakeup

willowApr 17, 2024

sometimes i have thoughts at 2am that are utterly undecipherable

willowMar 16, 2025

anyway hmu if u wanna be my admirative object

alice robertsMar 16, 2025

also should be clear that none of these are “new” thoughts, just sometimes i shift the level and focus of abstraction and then shift it back again