so its possible theyre conflating or im conflating the critiques but i think theres a distinction to be made. also to be clear I could probably search for the exact right xenogender stuff for me bc i dont see any point and am quite disillusioned about personal authenticity

but i think thats pretty rare for most people and is an undue burden for most ppl trying to figure out their shit in a gendered world. not to mention that also contributes to my personal and ashamed nature about the topic, bc i dont use labels and dont even like pronouns,

my experience is entirely alien to people and i have no way of simply communicating how i feel. so i can absolutely sympathize with people being like hey this is a way i can conceptualize myself in a world where thats basically required to communicate and exist

also i should prob look more into dysphoria stuff? idk if thered be any use tho bc i dont think id want to do hrt despite thinking about it plenty, for one thing i dont want booba (at least permanently lol, see recent tweets) but yeah idk i think im mostly ok with my body

or at least i dont think hrt would help me be more ok with my body. I could have social gender dysphoria and not physical? (even tho i sometimes do feel physical ig) but i have a feeling that it ultimately all leads back to social and how im perceived

so idk whatever maybe not worth it to think about, i think ultimately its just one of those things ill have to live in discomfort about and exist in this uncomfortable space with no grounding bc i dont think it exists