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gender. I get that you might be concerned with the praxis of xenogender stuff but idk
also i think this is hard bc theyre kinda talking about public people doing this and my personal experience i actually feel pretty ashamed of my gender stuff and it feels intensely personal and embarrassing and vulnerable so i dont have that impulse at all
so its possible theyre conflating or im conflating the critiques but i think theres a distinction to be made. also to be clear I could probably search for the exact right xenogender stuff for me bc i dont see any point and am quite disillusioned about personal authenticity
but i think thats pretty rare for most people and is an undue burden for most ppl trying to figure out their shit in a gendered world. not to mention that also contributes to my personal and ashamed nature about the topic, bc i dont use labels and dont even like pronouns,
my experience is entirely alien to people and i have no way of simply communicating how i feel. so i can absolutely sympathize with people being like hey this is a way i can conceptualize myself in a world where thats basically required to communicate and exist
also i should prob look more into dysphoria stuff? idk if thered be any use tho bc i dont think id want to do hrt despite thinking about it plenty, for one thing i dont want booba (at least permanently lol, see recent tweets) but yeah idk i think im mostly ok with my body

so idk whatever maybe not worth it to think about, i think ultimately its just one of those things ill have to live in discomfort about and exist in this uncomfortable space with no grounding bc i dont think it exists
which i hope doesn't lead to me to eventually just be like fuck it im cis its easier that way to try and avoid it bc i think its an important disposition to have and i think my experiences are important idk thats it