A bunch. I don’t remember how I was immediately following breakup, but I could imagine either way.

I think a big part is my changing understanding and phenomenological experience of gender (my own and others). I was more fully able to accept that I wasn’t straight and explore a bit. I think it helped dislodge my mental objectification of women’s bodies and problematics my

Attraction. The other thing is my internal understanding of gender changed a bunch, and I started to relate to / gender envy (cringe TikTok but it fits) towards women and more feminine presentation. My attraction to others is very similar if not identical to how I’d like

My own presentation to be now. Which is sorta weird thinking about it and prolly root of a lot, but I don’t know what to make of that yet.

Something related I’ll mention is a greater uncomfortably with what is presented in porn, before it was sort of conceptually understanding it was weird and bad but now it’s a lot more visceral and emotional.

Also it’s annoying to have straight porn be everywhere, and lesbian porn be super male gaze fetish, and gay porn be super aggressive, and trans porn be SUPER fetish problematic. Only stuff that escapes that is homemade and uh idk not always greatest quality.