the greater the distance the more i admire how insightful i was by the end of college, like i was right about all the the things to be skeptical about and resistant to, at least in terms of the anticipated affects.

i would say "the main thing i was under-prepared/experienced for was how much i could tolerate before giving in" but no, that was anticipated too and was regarded as one of the more depressing realities.

anyway, i specifically mean this with reference to something rather trivial and kind of cute. i used to basically regard it as a point of pride (or rather, that the alternative would be more regrettable) that i was untalented at my job for a variety of reasons.

and now that i have genuinely improved, i get these annoying urges and i see myself becoming more work-obsessed/interested/invested, like kasey. like "oh this guy said something wrong in an email let me correct him and provide a bunch of evidence" or go out of my way to correct things