this account was a failed relapse i could only stomach for a moment before making myself sick

okay maybe emma is right, i need to be more private

kind of incredible that i continually surround myself with people i perceive to be more adept than me at nudging me away from err, wonder whats up with that

moron

Daher was das Unaussprechliche genannt wird, nichts anderes ist, als das Unwahre, Unvernünftige, bloß Gemeinte.

call me a larper but i still like the miller translation best for this segment, unutterable is better than inwood's inexpressible or pinkard's unsayable

my progress is miserably sluggish, don't wait up for me

i don't know how to obscure the right parts of myself to maintain the appearance of beauty

wishing i were more elegant

i feel fatigued and fragile

kasey had a switch mod moment while egosurfing

surfeit

it's cute that kasey has been coming home from work late and immediately stops by my place for a pick-me-up

luv u 2 kitty

i don't care for secrets, even if it means i'm uninteresting

comfort is such a strange concept

im more comfortable when im sad

ive become increasingly aware of how straightforward i require things to be in order to feel comfortable

i was thinking about root bc quote but it made me think of parent bc of how much affinity geuss' characterization of teddie has with the emotional listener

ive always had a soft spot for the emotional listener too, for she is me

<-- failed to communicate the stateful significance of system configuration in contrast to static files

my vocabulary is so limited rn i gotta read again

i don't think i can convince myself of the primacy of the functional when it comes to my private engagement with music

like she's right to an extent and i know that's not exactly what she said but it is effectively

not false but split apart and focusing on the truth of a constituent yknow

music as augment or aid or subservient or secondary is such a debased role it continually has thrust upon it and it repugnantly takes up

raymond geuss

whenever im in like 200+ track per day territory my ears start to hurt

i feel like they didn't previously hurt this way, i'm kinda worried i damaged my ears at that show I didn't wear earplugs :/

found kasey's bandcamp

ITS SO ANNOYING THAT EVERYONE IS READING MOOD MACHINE AAAAA

guy who reads mood machine: i should make a youtube video about this

only a marginal improvement from guy who reads mood machine and says "i should make a youtube channel about this"

LOL they're locking us out of claude until we complete "agentic safety and security training"

my tasks are coming along swimmingly

i wanna watch skater guys suck each other off

this is my horny throwaway acc ig

loser64 is still just for hailey sorry

im heterosexual in the sense that im really into dimorphism

it doesn't really make sense because it's with people that are technically the same sex as me but every time i compare myself i feel other-sexed than them

nonbiney is so fake...

maybe tomorrow i will get to work on real things instead of being placed in the small talk torture chamber (doubt)

my new manager suuuuuucks

add to *ollie? nope, it's already there

can you believe i almost got over her

i'm so lightheaded ugh