taro :)

i really like kasey

my place is a mess

i don’t want anyone to save me or make me feel better, i just want respite

lowkey today sucked shit

yesterday i was thinking about agitation, and that it was an emotion i wasn’t feeling. it was too animated. and now im very far in agitation mode

getting cold called into speaking to customers, weird obligations and communications and bullshit, i hate it and i wanna go home

i’ll be okay, i can dream the rest away

it sure takes its precious time

i’m so angry these days

the day ollie fell through i felt anger for the first time in what felt like forever, and now it seems so much more common

i’m seriously going to lose my mind if i have to parse another sentence that clearly uses english words but was miraculously strewn together by a monkey with duct tape in a random order

it’s not even like just random retards either i’m taking to the national director of revenue cycle and they are sub-literate

also congratulate me on making it a whole 24 hours before being put on the retard blocklists

“can you provide a more end-user friendly description” no 😭 that’s what it means dude

“here is a highly specific metric used in the background which relies upon domain-specific knowledge, can you make it so it doesn’t work like that?”

oh no the relay is doing That Thing again

#takecare #friendship

i love glue-chan

i slept for like 10 hours, plus the 3 hour nap yesterday

i should take it gentle today

yknow what i should work from home i still feel :/

i watched a decent amount of joseph anderson today, he’s kind of a lower stim NL

impotent transvaluation is difficult to catch in oneself

i think this is basically attributable to the fact that all affirmation is appraising that which can do no other; the difficulty resides in recognizing debility

and to spell out the obvious: weakness, if present, is prone to leave its bearer ill-equipped to characterize itself appropriately (which is similar but distinct from the situation in the transvaluative moment)

sometimes it is beneficial to the process to obscure the transvaluation itself, that these values did emerged with a negating moment. or it could be only partially recognized, with an acknowledgment of the negativity but a misattribution of whom or what is being negated.

there is lots of opportunity for failure in analysis at different levels, and it is likely that multiple will be incorporated into the obfuscating ego defense. those best positioned to examine the situation are also those most motivated to see the project of apprehension fail.

i talked about the specific cases i had in mind in the audio earlier so i don’t feel like im cheating by not providing examples. tl;dr this past year i tried making things into known personality traits, but they really stemmed from lukewarm failures and anxieties. think: gail breakup -> archival

immediately i feel like talking about lil watermark and have to decide if that’s a violation, i think not because not personal, but it’s still sentimental so im hesitant. anyway, he made good shit

i think i will add an operating heuristic to my list, i will largely refrain from commenting on others unless directly conversing with others

i'm a little self-absorbed at the moment and that is acceptable

i took a nap and i feel okay

it was helpful, i got juice

you know that one thing you like and that other thing you like? well they’re actually co-constitutive of one another

it’s your lucky day aquinas

it’s bright and makes my head hurt but that’s okay

if you append “but that’s okay” most things become more okay

some things aren’t okay but that’s okay

should i leave my house to acquire commodities

vote in the comments below

too stimmed still, i don’t think i can pull it off

peeing standing up is kind of awesome, i should do this more often

84% Non-monogamist 79% Vanilla 14%

i backed up my discord data yesterday, i might ask for a new invite to elf harem some time

there's an albatross around your neck all the things you've said and the things you've done can you carry it with no regrets? can you stand the person you've become?

impatient with both sentimentality and piety, he expressed the impolite thought that the naming of a feeling is not necessarily the feeling itself and that what we may desire to feel, or what we say we feel, is sometimes given to us in advance in the form of expectation, norm, or cliché.

“the narrator, seeking to enhance the grief he feels at his grandmother’s death, suddenly finds he feels nothing at all”

don't feel up to starting anything

you sure are sad a lot