every time i go check on the gang everyone is just really not having a good time 😭

y'all are so silly

yinz*

i wonder if pre-kasey kasey was a smiling broadly fan, seems like her vibe

i’ve loved her s/t ep for a while but this is really something

i could skip most of my responsibilities today and it would be fine

888psych is the greatest r&b artist the world has ever seen

originally the latter was intended, i think i need to play with the different modes of identity construction a bit more

there’s something hollow and unrigorous about skipping through an important story and just extracting the conclusion. you miss all the constitutive moments and lack the experience when confronted with similar conversational patterns in the future

i can be a bad reader sometimes and it makes me a bad writer, so it’s time to turn that around

pretty slow on the uptake but that’s what wasted years are for

live-skeeting the jargon of authenticity but shaking my head so everyone observing my spirit journey knows i disagree

retrospectively i realize this is ambivalent between me actually employing the jargon of authenticity myself and me reading adorno’s book

wait a minute maybe the play is to read durkheim and weber

i had caffeine and talked with kasey for 5 hours last night

one of the most shocking things looking back on it all how was how unbelievably dense it all was, so much shit happened in such a tight time

experimentation with sincerity and adhesion to a role is a weird way to play

i think i talked a lil too much

in the sense that i needed more down time

tired

but i processed a lot and i like kasey

i think i really like cable knit sweaters and i also really like little thumb holes in tops

i would wear the FUCK out of the edith finch fit

eating is hard

my body is so much more consistently hydrated when i’m not in the evil building all day

kasey is in hitler hell 2 day :(

last meeting of the day u can do this ★ᯓ٩ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ )و

it was

the chatter is so unnerving

oops i made a mistake again

the second parameter needs to be set to the right magic number !

in my defense the default behavior is Bad

i woke up too early and now i’m tired :|

i need home and sugar and lay down time

i wish statements office hours was this week, this issue is annoying

statements? annoying? 🫨

oh no i found Discourse

how do y’all deal with this everyday 😭 it’s so dumb

i’m gonna go back to playing toys in the basement yay

e is all positives, especially atrophy and it killing my libido

i get like 5 whole minutes a month back

jd really hit when he said “watch me switch from the boy I was about five seconds ago”

emotional regulation is for chumps

this was a position i explicitly avowed and solidified in the kasey tapes and i don’t think ive refuted it yet, even though i wouldn’t confidently proclaim it today

if anything, i reached my personal breaking point with that approach and if im not going to challenge that position the only other survivable option is to put guardrails on my environment

even with that scoped domain the stimulation is more than enough to saturate my emotional range

so maybe it’s time to revisit the thesis, i’m just scared of growing up

:( i don’t wanna go but my manager guy is gonna be mad at me

i just wanna be a magical girl