i don’t mind the words, and i appreciate the engagement 🙂 unfortunately my rejoinder is going to be same old and tired one i always use (mostly in deactivated prxr threads): i am simply not individually powerful enough to meaningfully overcome my conditions, and its not as simple as choosing better.

i'm always told "well yes, of course you must punch in your 45 hours that are corrosive and deadening, but think of the life you can live outside of those hours!". but it's not as if my life outside is not deeply influenced by how i spend the bulk of my time.