at face value this is unrelated but it feels connected for me.
i can be extremely stubborn and uncompromising (and resentful of those who i perceive as disruptive), unless there is some overwhelming force of admiration, and even that is usually transient and delicate
a lot of really interesting tidbits and a lot of all-too-familiar observations, plus plenty i never knew before. it made me laugh so many times because of how frequently absurd it all is