still working this out but i’ve recently been reflecting about the role of fantasy in my life. obviously spurred on by strong identification with the schizoid experiences i read about.

had a meeting with long-term work friend and couldn’t stop myself from yapping about all the lovely people in my life and they said they had never seen me so happy

ctrl+a deleted 800 emails, hopefully nothing important

waow this guy's voice is cute youtu.be/mxduZ8YHw-s?...

my supportive non-monolingual bloomfs about me: "I know it's in English but despite that it's very good!"

breaking: local girlfailure unplugs phone during overnight vc, ruins e-date when it dies

never kill yourself

@jeroba.xyz danii has been jumpscared a dozen times by your cock post and every time it yelps “aaa penis” 😭

my relationships move fast we're already furniture shopping

this me

sometimes you have to create a post you don’t agree with to bait engagement and make new friends

meeting with jade was a success but we didn’t take any pics so i can’t use my draft ideas

saying nothing and blurting it all out at once

listening to her playlist while driving and just bathing in emotion

defederating (downranking your meow list membership)

feat: threadgate option for accounts created with an invite code

people from discover will really diagnose you with adhd instead of international gf syndrome

doubting this more and more lately

in other news, i also have a very obvious and embarrassing crush, although this time im choosing to not hide away in private compensatory fantasy. kinda over defensive reluctance and safety

i very much adore how much earnest-posting has been going on lately in my social circle. i love being surrounded by expressions of affection

is it bad that i drank 200mg of caffeine then promptly took a 2 hour nap

bunny

i need something softer for her

cinnamon clipdump when

still haven’t figured out how to interact with some of you yet sorry

bullshitting at the polycule stand-up so i don’t get pip’d

i know this is blasphemous but jazz fusion on 2x speed slaps

people should be racist to me more often

quasi-transitioning in private has done wonders for maintaining a separate and detached work identity

my eyes sting and my heart hurts. why is 4500 miles so far

i miss mary hums

i’m getting peeved by engagement after only receiving meaningful replies/likes for a bit. maybe this will help

my high school girlfriend's mom was so fucking cool. immigrated from the philippines, her (generally already absent) husband got deported for fraud and she raised her three kids by herself and put them through college working multiple jobs. she was unbelievably kind, warm-hearted, and soft spoken.

i don’t care about the ‘poor little displaced native workers’ who suffer under deregulated borders

if this works out im taking partial credit btw

confession: i skip over kasey’s sections in the kasey tapes

from:list: keyword search so i can find kasey posts

bsky imessage embed is cool

my voice is so hoarse i’m such a yapcel

is it even a date if you don’t go through drafts of the Marx-Zasulich Correspondence?

massive shout out to my babysitter tonight while i overdosed on caffeine and ranted for 5 hours about marxism and philosophy

tell me what terminal emulator to use

screw a 'second brain' note-taking app, i have a PDS

today is a good day because The OED Loves Me Not uploaded again

i have a lot of unformed thoughts about the recent prominence of 'safety' as a theme in my relationships

my soundcloud wrapped features 'Drop Top Cock' and 1NC3L_F8G_15 uploads