new room today and i still probably can't focus for music but ill survive

@kasey.cafe says this to me daily

more like she talks to herself like this daily

hey no fair you reached sentience before me

it doesn't matter if you got a head start, don't you remember the tortoise and the hare?

okay fine i backpedaled a little but it'll be good when im not so busy in a sec

i like the light from my shitty cheap keyboard and i like the sounds from my shitty expensive phone

as sensory inputs go, touch is more or less a logical necessity and sight a practical necessity, but hearing is often the most notably pleasurable

i should appreciate my eyes more

kasey told me she likes my voice when i'm not in public

me too

more like that futur guy is cute and talented and makes me a better person and shows me lots of kindness

oof embarrassing

in fairness this is literally undocumented but in retrospect its intuitive enough

everything is just double humiliating with backups over your shoulder lol

they should make closed back humans

all the sounds stay inside

ikr it's one of the best compliments

go-lives are boring, it's all charging

someone had a fake fol issue and i wrote a zrzl tho

sometimes u gotta stop worrying about the intricacies and internal architecture of retarded shit

and sometimes you're forced to care

less often that you make it out to be

this isn't a pro-freedom post, as i trust you know

i should stop saying that but old nietzschean habits die hard

alright i talked too much, ill be back later

youtube disabled my links i hate you google

i know i shouldnt even be reading it but it's really funny that she just regurgitates justifications for the state in such overt ways

like we've got hobbes and kant and a full-throated literal liberal paternalism (mama!). penny the anti-republican queen

there's a lot of these that are like "wow that's a deep thought!" if you've never read any philosophy and you don't realize she's poorly articulating the defunct history of western thought

like just watch the end of this lecture

okay lowkey i'm the one slopping it up i'm being just as unrigorous in my response and thoughts about this but that's because the original is so jumbled lol

in some ways it reminds me of those proto anarchists that were like "guys let's just simplify the rules to a dozen or so and hang them up at the town square" but i don't really feel like drawing out the connection

to quote kasey: i have to be a big girl and coordinate a mutual relationship reassessment with my situationship and speak openly about the feelings i have, even if they're conflicted/confused/not fully worked out/risky because the inevitable consequence of postponing is resentment/deterioration

the trouble is speaking openly while not being sure what honesty looks like, and i'm notoriously unreliable at working it out on the fly. but in some sense it feels necessary for it to be worked out together and not giving them the opportunity to contribute to our self-determination is bad

i mean bad practically, and it's funny because the relationships i have been more open with have found a way of working, i think im just right when ive said in the past that proximity trumps all as a precondition for interaction and as long as you maintain interaction it'll work out.

so the threat of the loss of mutual self-determination is less moral and more of a threat to break down all at once, which leaves a condition that is a lot harder to incrementally recover from proximity-wise

envy as dyadic and jealousy as triadic is appealingly simple and harmonious but i think there might be some challenging edge cases

maybe it's slightly mistaken or simplistic. it's more about possession vs attention, the personhood is basically a red herring

gratitude is lauded as the remedy for envy but i have my doubts. it's still self-diminishing and accommodating oneself to taking pride in mediocrity. i suppose that's an envious persons mentality. it could be seen as replacing a sense of lacked possession with an appreciation for current possessions

idk it just feels like a misdirection rather than a proper remedy. it has the air of a bad spiral of powerlessness, which makes sense because it is a christian virtue after all

and yknow maybe it's right that it is a cure for envy, it's just that sometimes you should not run away from productive envy

i guess this also doesn't address the fantasy nature of envy but that also feels like a strategy for misdirection and as a reassurance that there is no necessity to change

i also think like, jealousy as frustration with another's attention has a lot more going for it than it normally gets credit for. mostly because the cultural forms it continually finds itself bound to are grotesque

i keep having to hold myself back from saying "parsimonious" because of philosophy of science in my mind it has come to have an aesthetic association of harmony and coherence when really it's more about frugality of assumptions

i think you could argue that those are likely implications, and a lot of philosophy of science kind of takes that for granted especially on a rhetorical level, but yes very distinct things and id be mistaking the effect for the cause

supposed* cause. there are some compelling reasons to believe in the emergent properties of theoretical parsimony if you're a positivist and/or have a relatively narrow scope