Which is related to 2) I can burn out pretty quickly. I’ll be obsessed with a thing for a short burst, where it’s all consuming and my life and thoughts revolve around that thing, and then one day I’ll decide “ok I’ve had enough of that for now” and there’s not always a follow-up thing to replace it

3) On the flip side, it can be super off-putting to be on the receiving end of so much attention all at once. It’s obsessive, it’s uncomfortable, it’s too much pressure and responsibility. And once the spell breaks and my cyclical obsession lapses, it can make 1) all the more confusing and hurtful.

Clearly this one doesn’t really matter for hobbies I get attached to, since they usually don’t care too much, as they don’t have feelings. That being said, there tends to be a sort of natural consequence for excessive indulgence. 4) whether it be my physical or emotional health, spurts of obsession

Can be incredibly destructive. I will neglect many of my responsibilities [not quite responsibilities as such, since I go out of my way to possess as few obligations as possible, frequently to a pathological degree. Not sure why this is in brackets considering it’s actually one of the main bits of

fallout from 4]. In order to facilitate my less than predictable obsession schedule, I will eschew as much commitment ahead of time as possible to other activities or people. I don’t want to be respecting a promise, I want to be doing the shit my brain is telling me Has To Happen Now. Weakness maybe

That’s enough reasons for now, I’m running out of steam a bit. To loop back around to *quickly: it’s kindaaa not quite right, because I take a while to get comfy and familiar before diving in and getting completely taken away all of the sudden. Like a calm river snapping into turbulent choppy rapids