i really dislike the person i am now

once again convinced that quietism is my only obligation

The only thing that can perhaps be said is that the good life today would consist in resistance to the forms of bad life that have been seen through… other than this negative prescription no guidance can be envisaged.

But the thesis of this paradox leads to destruction, a loveless disregard for things which necessarily turns against people too; and the antithesis, no sooner uttered, is an ideology for those wishing with a bad conscience to keep what they have. Wrong life cannot be lived rightly.