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ok this is really interesting convo, i think i actually ultimately disagree but very interesting to entertain ideas, i think ill download the vod and upload https://clips.twitch.tv/BitterRudeJalapenoSeemsGood-aVL7xlbDxOHrm7S4
oh to be clear i think the critique of the therapeutic society and stuff is totally spot on and that its not like materially politically relevant, and also that endlessly differentiating the self in order to find "authenticity" is a lost cause, there are just a few points
where I think theres a little bit of ignorance and inexperience with ppl like me (not cis ig but not strongly associating with a label, potentially experiencing gender dysphoria?? [lmao i didnt realize some of the stuff ive been describing has counted as dysphoria, idk what to do
with that whoops]) and a bit too much hostility towards people that are figuring out how to survive in a gendered society and a bit too much charity to those criticizing them despite the public ramifications
like ultimately im super charitable to gender abolition but like bruh if you only invoke that type of thinking when xenogender / nbs are speaking up then?? lmao wtf. if you genuinely are upset by that, then you should be just as mad (if not more!) at cis people practicing their
gender. I get that you might be concerned with the praxis of xenogender stuff but idk
also i think this is hard bc theyre kinda talking about public people doing this and my personal experience i actually feel pretty ashamed of my gender stuff and it feels intensely personal and embarrassing and vulnerable so i dont have that impulse at all
so its possible theyre conflating or im conflating the critiques but i think theres a distinction to be made. also to be clear I could probably search for the exact right xenogender stuff for me bc i dont see any point and am quite disillusioned about personal authenticity
but i think thats pretty rare for most people and is an undue burden for most ppl trying to figure out their shit in a gendered world. not to mention that also contributes to my personal and ashamed nature about the topic, bc i dont use labels and dont even like pronouns,
my experience is entirely alien to people and i have no way of simply communicating how i feel. so i can absolutely sympathize with people being like hey this is a way i can conceptualize myself in a world where thats basically required to communicate and exist
also i should prob look more into dysphoria stuff? idk if thered be any use tho bc i dont think id want to do hrt despite thinking about it plenty, for one thing i dont want booba (at least permanently lol, see recent tweets) but yeah idk i think im mostly ok with my body
or at least i dont think hrt would help me be more ok with my body. I could have social gender dysphoria and not physical? (even tho i sometimes do feel physical ig) but i have a feeling that it ultimately all leads back to social and how im perceived
so idk whatever maybe not worth it to think about, i think ultimately its just one of those things ill have to live in discomfort about and exist in this uncomfortable space with no grounding bc i dont think it exists
which i hope doesn't lead to me to eventually just be like fuck it im cis its easier that way to try and avoid it bc i think its an important disposition to have and i think my experiences are important idk thats it